PRAYER

at a time in my life that i was a bit more spiritual i would tend to ask god for strength and tolerance so i could deal with all the things that were coming my way. no matter how much i'd ask, pray, plead, or bargain, things would spiral and get out of control i would encounter such circumstances that i would have so many questions and such little answers but still i'd pray and ask for strength and tolerance and hope to believe that god was watching and listening and my prayers would be answered i felt confused and alone, i'd wonder if it's that i'm not such a good person and that's why i'm still in this predicament, i just didn't know i thought that i was being punished, doomed, cursed; and i was, but only to myself i realized that although many mistakes later i'm not such a bad person and even if i feel alone i'm not cause there's this good person that never leaves my completely alone, that these predicament's are a part of life that i must experience, and the curse can always be broken today i pray: god give me the knowledge show me the answers let me be weak and humble instill in me love and understanding with your love and understanding provide this weak and humble soul the answers and knowledge to face my reality and make the best of it my prayers were answered when i was asking for strength and tolerance; but today i'm a bit more careful as what to pray for, do i need all that strength should i have so much tolerance or do i want knowledge and answers, love and understanding?