UNSCREWING MYSELF

so as i sit here and contemplate what to jot down, i am bombarded with thoughts and am having a hard time sorting things out. i want so desperately to just be,have some kind of normalcy in my life and kind of go with the flow; i sit and wonder just exactly what that would be i have no answer and if i don't have answers for my problems well then i guess i'm screwed uh, so i set aside trying to think what it would be like if things were different and focus on what needs to change